Ahh how funny life is...
... I can't help but wonder what is wrong with the world these days. Everything seems to be so out of whack. When you think you want something you are happy... until that something shinyier, newer, better thing comes along... then you aren't happy at all until you have it... the only problem is, it seems, that once you have it, it becomes less shiny, less new, and there is always something better to be had. So the real question is...
WHY ARE PEOPLE SO CONSUMED WITH HAVING SOMETHING BETTER THAT THEY DON'T REALIZE HOW GREAT THE THING THEY HAVE ACTUALLY IS AND TREAT IT THE BEST THEY CAN?!?!
It is just so irritating! It all boils down to people are so consumed with the past or worried about the future that the present seems to totally slip away. We are always so worried about what we should do about a situation that it stews in our brain until its long boiled over and the opportunity we had has long passed...
... people don't love themselves enough. I truly believe this. There are so many examples of this that I can hardly count but i'm sure that you know of a situation like this you have witnessed in your own life. People are so worried all the time about being wrong or being right, about what other people think about them or will think if they make one decision over another. TO THIS I SAY STOP CARING ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK! OTHER PEOPLE ARE REALLY ONLY INTERESTED IN THEMSELVES!
Love is too precious to hold back because you are afraid of being emotional and looking like a pussy with a girl you have been with for THREE YEARS!!! (this is a problem i have noticed all most ALL guys that i know have and it is ridiculous by the way). And you may not realize what an amazing person you have found because you can't let go of the amazing person you used to have, even after they have long since let go of you (I don't think I have ever known anyone that hasn't had this problem at one time or another).
We all want that someone to share things with...that soft place to fall when we all just want to curl up in a ball and cry or do the best we can to schmooze with romance just to see that one sparkle in their eye that we all want to be the only one to give them....
... I find myself in that place. I want to have that someone to do things for, kid around with, love, hold, and spoil absolutely rotten. I want that someone I can call and say "HEY BABY, GET NAKED, I'LL BE THERE IN FIVE MINUTES!!" (because if you know me you know i think like that and just can't help it...embrace it, love it and we'll all be happy). I want that someone that thinks i'm beautiful even if I look like crap and that TELLS ME SO just the right amount so as not to spoil it but not to let me forget. I want that someone who will talk about hockey and football and still love me even though they despise my NEVER CHANGING LOVE OF THE RED WINGS. I want that someone who realizes how lucky they are to have me and let's me tell them how lucky I am to have them. I want to love and be loved like its a first love all over again. I want to love like I've never been hurt. I want to love someone like they have never been loved. I want that secure, forgiving, unadulterated, unperfect, UNCONDITIONAL love...
... must be the puppy chow ...
Originally published on my myspace blog on the given date*
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I AM VERY MUCH MY OWN BEST KEPT SECRET 
