pain... without love, pain... cant get enough*

pain... without love, pain... cant get enough*

Current mood:crushed

Its been a long time since I've felt the pain of a broken heart. I don't think there's anything like it in the world. I can definitely say that I'd rather have my ass beat than my heart broken. You cry till your eyes can't even make anymore tears ... And then you cry some more. Plans are cancelled, hopes are dashed, and all you thought you knew about yourself and your future now becomes the unknown. Its amazing how one person can make your whole world and have the power to make it all come crashing down. They can make you feel like you are the only one in the world or like you've fallen off the face of the planet. I've always thought that I was a confident, strong girl who could stand on her own two feet and make her own dreams come true with no help just good morals, hard work, and kindness. And yet, it all seems pointless, unattainable, and unwanted. What good is my world without you to share it with me? We were going to have a little dirt bike for our kids. We were going to have a beautiful house with soft leather couches to cuddle on. We were going to be great. But now what? Where do I go, what do I do, what do I work for and hope for and dream for without you? Life doesn't make sense to us sometimes. Often its pretty painful when we don't understand why things are happening and we constantly try to rationalize, deny, or torture ourselves until its hard to even breathe. I suppose all we can do is hope for better days and that this too shall pass. But life was always better with you by my side. Sometimes its not for us to decide, or choose, or know. Just to learn to know something new. Miss you *

Originally published on my myspace blog on the given date*