what it takes...*

what it takes...*

Current mood:creative

Life can be very complicated. Insight is always appreciated.

Pain comes in many forms... mental... emotional... physical...

sometimes they blend together so much that you can no longer seperate them into catagories.

Sometimes I wonder what I've been doing with my life the past two years. Scratch that... I've been a mental case for almost four now.

Somewhere along the line I lost myself. To be honest, I think I gave myself away a long time ago and when things went bad... among the pictures and sweatshirts and baseball hats.... I was the one thing I forgot to get back. Since then I have not been myself and it definitely shows.... But then again... what if that's not who I am anymore?

I most certainly think that I want to be something else. I'm tired of being one of the guys instead of "that" girl... I'm tired of feeling like I have no control and no say over what goes on in my life. So many things that I feel I need to change and work towards and restore... I don't even know where to begin.

Physically i'm a wreck. Emotionally i'm worse.

Mentally I'm exausted.

If there was ever a time to need a hero... now would be it.

It could always be worse... I tell myself that everyday. I'm thankful for the people in my life and the things I have... I just know that I need to start doing things in a whole new way.

No day like today.

Originally published on my myspace blog on the given date*