:(... i think this is really bothering me... what is classy anyway?*

:(... i think this is really bothering me... what is classy anyway?*

Current mood:worried

okay so its official... jason and i's fight really bothered me.

I can't stop thinking about it... what is classy anyway? I mean I know that a clean well mannered well dressed girl is classy... but if i'm not those does that mean i'm not classy? and doesn't classy mean submissive and boring? ::SIGH:: any girl that i have ever met that has been called "classy" was always a girl that i would never want to be like. Sure I could take more care of myself, wear better clothes... but that wouldn't change who I am. I could stop cussing... that's not really apart of what makes me me... but ya know... you can only compromise so much until you start compromising the things that make you you. I mean I may not be what you would call classy... but that doesn't mean i'm not polite, that doesn't mean i don't have manners, it doesn't mean that i don't carry myself well or that I don't have any beauty to me... does it? I think i might be obsessing about this a tad but it really got me... not that he said it... it just makes me wonder what others think of me... if how i act keeps them from seeing my good points.  So what do I do? Can I be more ladylike... be more "classy" and still be me? And if so... how? Geez how frustrating this mess is. Damn Jason sheesh.

Originally published on my myspace blog on the given date*